🔗 Share this article Unbearable Agony: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches It was a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting. The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder. Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that lasts up to three hours. Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods. What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free. Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home. Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center. Still, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility. Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads. Ancient healing records suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies. It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”. Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this. In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better. In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints. Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments. A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased. National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals. But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity. The official guidelines need updating to reflect a